Title: He Saw Me First (An Age & Innocence Novel)
Author: M Johnson
Genre: Dark Age Gap Romance
Warnings: Trigger warnings (There is half a scene where forced sex is implied but not written.) Violence. Shooting. Heat level is high (LOL)
Across an empty laneway in Paris, through my hotel window,
He saw me first.
I stopped undressing . . . but only for a moment.
The next night, he was waiting for me.
He sat there in his expensive suit and watched.
My only acknowledgement was the look of lust in his eyes.
It continued until the night before I left,
when I found a card under my door.
No words. Just a number.
So, I texted him.
I’d never done anything like it before.
It felt so dirty and wrong, but at the same time, I felt alive.
He was much older than me, so intimidating and sexy.
He made me feel things no man ever has.
I was under his spell.
The last thing I expected was to ever see him again.
One Line Review: “The most emotionally intense read I’ve read in a long time.“
I have the privilege of getting an early copy of this book by Missy Johnson writing as M Johnson. The last age gap romance I’d read was by Jane Harvey-Berrick. I’ve not really read anything in the dark area not because I don’t think they could be good stories but because I haven’t seen any that have grabbed my attention.
When I was approached by M Johnson for an honest review, I jumped on the chance. I have read her books under Missy Johnson and have loved them all. So, I figured, why not, right? LOL It’s taken me a few days to write a full review because I hadn’t expected that.
This had to be the most emotionally intense book I’ve read in a long time. Crazy how quick I connected with characters. Though the age between the two main characters is 20+ years, I couldn’t really feel it. The story more focused on the connection between Dominic and Lexi. Which I loved. I loved that the focus was not the age difference but that there were REAL feelings between them.
I’ll admit that there’s a rush at the two of them getting caught. I laughed when she came face to face with him a year later. Lexi had been obsessed with him over the year since their encounter in Paris. The turmoil she inflicts upon herself, measuring every man or potential relationship up to the moment she shared with a stranger in Paris.
When the two finally cross paths again, her shock is not only palpable but comical. She’s tripping over herself, hiding. She loses thred of the conversations. I loved it. It seemed like genuine emotions from someone that had obsessed over the other person for so long.
Through her struggles, we also get bits of Dom’s POV and his side of things. The importance Lexi unknowingly played for him when he needed her the most. Or a sign the most, maybe is a better phrase. You also get to see his heartbreak and struggle with knowing their age difference but needing/wanting her all the same. Even knowing the ‘monster’ he claimed himself of being.
There were several moments that I cried. My stomach was in knots A LOT and I was sitting on the edge of my seat. There was even a moment where I said “What the fu<k!” out loud and scared my dog LOL (She’s my reading/writing buddy most days LOL She recovered, don’t worry LOL.)
I needed a read like this. To read a book so filled with emotion that I could feel it as my own. I couldn’t put it down and will anxiously be awaiting the next installment in this series. Especially if this were any indication of what to expect in the next one.
It may be forbidden. Taboo, even. To think of love blooming in an age gap like theirs but damn was it an amazing journey as the author proved why love is not assigned to a certain age. This is HIGHLY recommended to read and devour. It’s hot and spicy and emotionally intense and suspenseful. It has all the feels. I can’t recommend this book enough. Grab it today! Buy it or get it on Kindle Unlimited 😀
Coming soon in this series of stand alone novels…
She’s my best friend’s little girl.
The daughter I never had.
At least she was, until I kissed her on her 18th birthday.
I’d just discovered my wife was cheating on me.
I sought comfort in someone I shouldn’t have.
I stopped, because it was wrong.
Not because I didn’t want her.
I’ve kept my distance.
Avoided being alone with her.
Until her father asks for my help.
Now she’s living with me.
Her father trusts me.
Because I’m not sure I trust myself.
Age & Innocence #2:
A series of standalones that push the boundaries of forbidden age gap romances.